S.O.S.

I'm not sure if it's that V-day is just a few days away, or that we're 1/3 of the way into Feb, or just the fact that I'm slacking on homework, but today has been a trying day.  I'm at the point of frustration and wanting to give up again.  I have seen virtually NO results in 6 weeks other than a smaller waist (that still doesn't fit any pants I own).  My weight keeps fluctuating between 196 and 191 and I have no good explanation for it. I'm bustin my butt 5-6 times a week.  I do cardio that burns at least 550 calories each time and I alternate arms and legs on top of that.  I'm eating healthy, I've cut my calories, I have TONS of veggies in my fridge.... I just have NO idea why I can't lose any weight.  I'm doubly frustrated that at this rate I won't win the dietbet because there's no way I can lose over 10 pounds this far into the month since my weight flip flops more than a fish out of water.

I am in serious need of motivation or help or a smack upside the head.  I don't WANT to stop trying but I'm becoming more discouraged every day and I feel like that's going to not help me much.  The only good thing that's come out of this is I don't HAVE any binge food even if I wanted any. :)

Measurements.

My chunky monkey partner messaged me this morning that she had done body measurements and she was happy with some numbers but not with others.  I realized I forgot to take my Feb. 1st measurements to compare to Jan so I also did mine today.  I have to say I'm disappointed in my arms and legs.  There's no change at all in them.  But, I'm also not doing super vigorous work on each because I don't have a gym membership, I do what I can at home.  BUT my waist and my hips have gotten smaller according to the tape measure!  I still don't fit into my jeans (my largest pair) and my weight is still fluctuating like crazy, but there are visual results even if my eyeballs don't see it.  I lost 2 inches off my hips and 3 inches off my waist.  That's HUGE numbers in my head.  Now to tell my muscles to weight a little bit less so it looks like I'm losing weight, and I'll be dandy. :)

Veggies!

I have a whole shelf in my fridge full of veggies :)  food love!

And I've got salsa roasting in the oven :)

9 miles!

Well, I'm super proud of myself.  I had a super bad craving for taco bell.... so what did I do?  I had taco bell for lunch of course.  Why would I be proud of that you ask?  Because I biked 9 miles for it!  It's really only 3 miles away, but we took the scenic route and burned those calories!!! :)

So instead of it just turning into a bad day, a slip up in my diet, or whatever you wanna call it, I got in a serious workout that burned over 500 calories!  And I plan on doing my normal elliptical workout tonight if I get bored.  Motivation, food cravings, whatever it was today, I feel good :)

Motivation

Motivation is a weird thing.  Some days you have it, some days you don't.  Some days you tell that motivation to shove it and other days you wish you could make up with it.  This journey that I'm on has been a very important lesson day to day.  Motivational pictures float around, I post a bunch, they're all over pinterest, etc. but reading the words don't give you that oomph you need, it's what's inside you.

I've noticed a pattern that Tuesdays seem to be my most productive day of the week.  I'm up for class early, and I end up cleaning the house, doing laundry, cooking extra stuff like salsas and whatnot.  I find this weird because by Thursday I have nothing left to give.  I am struggling to get up for class, I work out right before bed (if I work out at all that day), and I just don't want to do anything.  I took note of my actions today.  While doing my homework, I almost fell asleep several times.  Instead of taking that nap that I usually do, I got up and I washed some dishes.  I knocked out my laundry, and I did my workout super early because my homework load is pretty light this week.

I would love to find the energy everyone talks about gaining from eating healthy and working out.  I'm trying to do the best that I can and I'm just not seeing results.  So I have to change it up.  Figure out what I should adjust and try again.  It's a frustrating and long journey but if it helps me become a better me, then why not?  Why should I rob myself of that opportunity?  So here's to a productive day and another change.  One of these days it's just going to click for my body, my mind, and I'll be waiting.

Feb 1, Another day 1

So today starts the dietbet to lost 4% by March 1st! The pot is over $5000 and I'm way excited for this month to pass by!  My current weight for weigh in is 189lbs.  I have to lose 7.6 lbs to win a portion of the pot :)  Any more than that is just bonus weight off! :)

This was my weigh in pic for the dietbet as well as my 1 month of progress pic (also my oh crap just take it in my pj's pic).

As February starts, we also get another awesome calendar of things to do.  Last month was Fab Abs and I'm sorry to say I was not able to stick with it.  This month is Gun Show!!! I'm stoked about this one because I LOVE tank tops so getting rid of that extra flab will be awesome!!!

Time to kick it into high gear again (I took a much needed rest day yesterday) because superbowl is just around the corner!  And with what I'm making... I know I'll go over my calories!

Football Calzones!

I hope everyone had a great Jan and good luck to Feb!!!