Bill after bill, sleepless night after restless morning, pain day in and day out, I'm slowly doing what I do best. I lose hope in the doctors that are caring for me. Why are all the tests negative or clear? I mean yeah! That's great but that doesn't explain the excruciating pain I'm currently experiencing. I'm not able to work full shifts, I had to completely stop working out (including my small walks at work). I am just going nuts in my own head. All that I have is TV, reading or video games. (while that's not at all bad in my vocabulary.... it's not what I should be doing or even need to be doing)
This week has proved to be the absolute worst of it so far. My pain spread and tripled after my colonoscopy. The doctor's advice? Go to the ER if it doesn't go away. Well what are they going to do for me? Run tests. Tests that have already been run in the last 7 weeks. #frustrated
Through all of this, I have had a lot of friends inquiring, checking in on me, etc. I am extremely grateful for all the love! It may even end up being a lifesaver! A friend suggested out of nowhere that I may have Celiac Disease. *well what the heck is that?
So while I wait, horribly impatiently for my results... I've decided to do a bit of studying on my own. Boy am I overwhelmed. With a lot of different feelings. I am ecstatic that this disease sounds just like what I'm experiencing and that means it might actually have a label! I am horrified because I want to be a chef, I cook constantly, and to give up some of the stuff that I incorporate day to day is daunting. I am sad because my pantry will be empty once I ditch the gluten. I am worried because of the money it will cost to stock the house back up with G-free foods. I am stressed because I don't want to impose this new diet on my bf but I don't want to be around foods I can't have all the time. I am hopeful that this may be an amazing solution to a lifelong abdominal issue.
I will be researching in more detail for the rest of the week and will give the G-free diet a go for a few weeks as a test run while I wait for those results to come in. I've read that there are great benefits to adopting this diet even if you don't have Celiac, but I'll cross that bridge once I have definitive answers.
To any of you out there reading this, do you have words of advice, favorite G-free websites, great G-free recipes (sugar free if you share dessert :( I can't have that either), or thoughts in general? I am eyeball deep in materials but I'm getting horribly overwhelmed by the big picture instead of taking it meal by meal or even ingredient by ingredient. I did however discover that 80% of my seasonings and herbs are G-free. That was a huge relief!
So here's to information and a new journey that may take me all over the place but it may just save my life.