Saturday, November 1, 2014

It's November?

Well here it is... month 11 and man where has the time gone?!  It's almost time for me to go back and read my Dear Me letter at the beginning of 2015!!

Well let's just jump right in!

Medically I'm doing about the same.  The search for doctors and answers is frustrating but the search does continue.  I actually have 3 appts in the next two weeks and hopefully someone will have something for me!

That being said, I think I'm doing really well emotionally.  This struggle has me down and is just honestly beating the crap out of me but I'm still moving and I'm still searching.  I can't give up.  I won't give up!  So I'm just army crawling through all the crap to get to where I need to be.  It's been an extremely slow and limited journey for the last 9 months and I'm not where I wanted to be at this point in the year.  BUT that's not what I'm focusing on.

Even with all that has happened, I'm still down about 17 or 18 pounds for the year.  I'm not in better shape but I'm still getting the blood pumping with walking.  However I can get in at least 20 mins a day just to avoid being overly lazy!

I've snuck in a 5k or two when I really shouldn't be, but it makes me feel good to know that I can push through the pain to get something done if I really need to!

So for November, I'm going back to basics but I'm also challenging myself.

I've been told by a doctor that I need to strengthen my core.  Not with crunches or situps or russian twists, but with planks.  And how convenient is it that the Shrinking Jeans has their #planksgiving calender out for the month!

I'm going to try to do a 3 mile walk once a week.  This may be setting a bar too high but I just don't feel like my upper body is responding to the cardio since I'm only walking about a mile and a half over 2 breaks at work every day.

I'm going to go back to my dumbbells and work on my arms and back.  It takes 5-10 mins a day and it's something that won't hurt any of my injuries so let's get those weights back into my life!

And on top of it all, I've finally made the leap to commit to the NaNoWriMo challenge.  I DON'T have the time for it whatsoever but one of my serious life long dreams is to write.  What better opportunity??  I can't believe I've been passing it up for so many years but this is the first November I've not been in school!  So, I'm going to do what I can to get through it and make it aaaaaaaaaaall work out!  A friend posting on FB and my motivation ring talked me into taking this jump and I hope that I enjoy it as much as I'm looking forward to the challenge. I will most likely start a new blog just strictly about/for writing but I'm hoping in the process I'll be more active here as well.  I feel like my injuries have dampered my love of sharing and inspiring.

So thank you to all those who help me and keep me motivated in all things.  I hope I can continue to do the same for others.

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Checking In With a Heavy Heart.

Well the last time I posted, I was about to go under the knife for an exploratory surgery and life just got real crazy after that!  I'll do my best to summarize and not blab on and on about boring stuff!  (warning, this is very medically heavy!) But first a few pictures!

This is the most recent picture I've taken for a weigh in but it's certainly not up to date.  I'm at about 190 currently.

Yay new car!  That's one stress off my back!

Spending some much needed time out of the house at a DiamondBacks game!

Now back to the medical crap:

The surgery itself went ok.  I am STILL healing from it 8 weeks later.  This annoys me but what can you do?  It's SURGERY!  They weren't able to find any indication of what is causing my pain whatsoever.  So that was a big bust and useless time away from a paycheck.  Yay!  But, at least I know, and some of my long time gynecological questions were answered by the surgery so it wasn't all that bad I suppose.

Where does that leave things? Up in the air I tell you.  My doctor is a nice man, but he's not on the ball about the next step or where to go or what we should do next.  The last 7-8 months have been all me making choices on where to go and who to see and I would just run it by him.  I'm currently just treating the abdominal/pelvic pain with medication and a pain cream.  This combination of stuff is helping but it's not fixing.  So big ? at the current dead end here.

Next, we have the sciatica I developed about 10 weeks ago.  The last I mentioned this, I was waiting for MRI results.  Those came in and *truly* showed nothing significant.  After going back for another month's worth of medication from my PCP, he actually suggested something!  Hallelujah! He suggested that I get an epidural shot in my back to try and knock out one of the two major pains I'm dealing with.  I was very welcome to the idea of trying something else rather than just sitting on the issue.

So I talked with the doctor that would do the procedure and after hearing all about the pain, he changed his mind and said we'd go with a caudal epidural to see if the pain is generating from my tailbone area.  So I showed up for the appointment, met a lot of amazing people (new hospital for me) and even though the procedure was 4 hours late, I didn't mind because I was being taken care of.

The shot was WAY scarier and painful than I ever imagined.  I mean, sure you hear how epidurals hurt for pregnant ladies, but I got it right in the base of my tailbone where everything is tender and super sensitive.  The numbing shot was the WORST.  Once it was over (took maybe 7 minutes total) they took me into recovery where everyone who I had started with came in and checked to see how I did.  The care was overwhelming (in a good way) especially since I came in expecting a little shot, not a full blown sterile procedure in a hospital.

This shot will take some time to kick in so I'm still not sure how helpful it will be but I am hoping it provides some answers.  If this shot doesn't work, I got a referral to an amazing back surgeon to see.

And last but certainly not least... I found out last night (while waiting for my shot) that I DO have at least ONE diagnosis!!!!  Can you believe that??  After all these months and tests and everything else.... A diagnosis (while terrible news) was the best thing to happen to me.  That's one less ? in my life.

Throughout the late months of 2013 and early months of 2014 I complained of hip pain when I tried to run.  I took the issue to my PCP finally and he immediately said let's get an MRI! And I'm like, great!  Let's do this and get some answers!  Well, when it was time to get the answers, I got a big fat "everything looks good, no problems with the MRI" from the doc.  So I turned away hurt and angry.  Not understanding how one person can keep hearing the word "healthy" with so many issues.  I didn't give it another thought because I was dealing with trying to get my abdominal pain under control so it sat on the back burner, as did my running and most of my walking.

Well, I happened to get my hands on my chart from my PCP that he sent to the doctor for my epidural.  I started flipping through.  Curious what he writes every time since my appointments last a grand total of 3-5 minutes.  I was horrified to see that most of my detailed complaints were missing.  Each page said pretty much the same thing, "pt complaining about pain and , asking for medication refills."  Anywho... skip about 4 months of pages and you get to my hip MRI results.  I skimmed it, stopped on a line about 2/3 of the way down.  I re-read it and finished the page.  I turned the page just to see if there was more and on THAT page, in doctor's handwriting WITH a signature next to it... it said "degenerative joint disease."  Now I spent a good 10 minutes flipping from those words to the line I have now read about 30 times.  I pulled out my phone and we googled the very large doctor words and came to the conclusion that my MRI shows "Moderate to Severe cartilage degeneration where my hip socket is."

Well, it's an answer right?  Certainly not one I want since this (like most of my other issues) runs heavy in the family.... But now I really know how much my PCP doesn't care about helping his patients. (by the way, that line was highlighted in my chart).  I will now have to proceed to an orthopedist to have someone look at it who specializes in these types of injuries to see what needs to happen next.  But hey, it's an answer and now it can be treated.   That's more than I can say for my other issues.

So as far as being healthy and active... I'm doing all I can which really isn't much but it's something.  I'm able to walk about 1/2 a mile most days for my exercise.  And I'm trying to keep my eating in check.  It's hard because I'm almost never in the kitchen with all my problems.  But one step at a time and I will not roll over and let my body get the best of me.  I may have put the weight back on because of my inactivity but I know that it was literally unavoidable with recovering from surgery.

I'm pretty much at my wits end with medical stuff and if I never saw another doctor, I'd probably be a happy person.  But, I will keep going.  I will make sure I don't get defeated by my issues.  I will stay as POSITIVE as I can.  I will move forward.

I have a lot of great people in my life helping me through all this and I wouldn't be who I am now without each and every person who has touched my life.  I thank you all.

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Wed Weigh In, Day 218

Well here it was, the morning I've been both dreading and anticipating.  Surgery day.  It's been a long 6 months of doctor after doctor, test after test.  I was just ready for this to be over with.  The week leading up to it had me on edge.  But first!  I had to weigh in!  DUH!  How else am I supposed to keep track and make sure I'm doing all I can to motivate myself and others??

So Tuesday night, I took my parents out to our favorite Mexican place because who doesn't want Mexican for their last meal before a 13 hour fast??  We had the special (and Zach and I's favorite meal)  a shredded beef taco and a cheese enchilada with red sauce.  It was just as heavenly as always and I didn't regret one bite of it!

Stepping on the scale the next morning, I was a touch worried what it might read because dinner was so heavy, but I was pleasantly surprised to see the number on the scale!  Turns out that going back to the habits I had before all the medical disasters this year pay off, I just needed to put that dreaded EFFORT into it.

It's been rough and bumpy at times.  I didn't want to be in the kitchen because I couldn't stand on my feet for long, I wasn't prepping anything and veggies were just going bad in the fridge rather than me eating them.  But about 2 weeks ago I decided it was time to buck up and get back in that saddle no matter how much my butt cheeks hurt from the ride :)

In this last week I was able to buy groceries, restock the pantry, fill the fridge with prepped veggies and I cooked enough food for 6 of the 7 nights.  I also cut back on the nasty soda habit I have at work and went back to force feeding myself water in my favorite water receptacle because the wide mouth encourages large amounts of liquid with little effort!  #lovemesomeblenderbottle

So without further ado, I am pleased to say that I'm almost back down to the lowest weight this year.  Hoping for a speedy recovery so I can put my tennies back on and get some walking done.  I will also be getting serious with yoga again due to sciatic nerve complications and I'm looking forward to challenging myself with this.  It's going to be hard since it has to happen in my living room, but it's medically necessary at this point so what better motivator?!

Hope everyone had a great week and hope that this next week is just as great if not greater!  Let's see those scale numbers move down!!

Saturday, August 2, 2014

That's the Way the Cookie Crumbles.

Well we meet again.  We'll skip the apologies and the pleasantries and just get right to it!  I've been pretty inactive in life dealing with medical issues left and right.  But I'm trying to dive back in to keep myself accountable and to get my mind off of everything!

For those who have been keeping up with my medical issues, here goes a short/not so sweet/but to the point explanation.  My issues that put me in the ER in February are still a big question mark.  I will be having exploratory surgery next week for this issue.  My hip issues are still unresolved.  The last conclusion we came to was a muscle issue all the way around my leg, not just hip flexors but I have been really bad about testing this theory out.  And last but not least, I've presented with sciatic nerve issues related to a family history of back problems.  This is in the MRI *waiting for results* phase of discover/planning for recovery.  *WHEW*  Think that sums it all up but I'm sure just presents a lot more questions.  Feel free to ask away if you'd like more detailed information but I can tell you right now, I'm just getting a lot of shrugs from doctors instead of answers.

I have been depressed, happy, and everything in between in the last month or so.  My good eating habits went out the window due to my medical stuff.  I just couldn't stand in the kitchen to cook every night so eating out became the ol' standby again.  I'm extremely unhappy about it but it's life and life throws curveballs.  I'm here to continue my journey because I never dropped it, I just detoured in some areas.

I have been walking almost every day still.  Not the distances I used to walk, but just enough to make me feel active and to help out with the sciatica and hip pains.  I'm blessed with the mindset of WANTing to walk on my break every day at work.  That desire never disappeared on me. :)

So lets get down to it!  I lost a lot of muscle with my inactivity and it turned into flab on my tummy, but in reality I didn't pack on the lbs from 4 months of bad eating.  THANK GOODNESS!  But it's time to get myself back on track.  This is my most recent Wed. Weigh In.

I've jumped back into all of the wonderful activities put on by my ladies over at the Shrinking Jeans.  The Sisterhood Shots and this month's calendar which is Abs.

I will have to move some of the Ab days around since I'm having abdominal surgery on the 6th, but I WILL get this done!  It's extremely important to me that I not throw all my knowledge, motivation, inspiration, and love for this away.  I just need to find a balance between medical struggles and continuing my journey.  Here's to August!

Sunday, May 4, 2014

If The Shoe Fits...Run 5k!

May the 4th be with you!  To be honest, I'm a little sad I didn't think to get into a virtual race for the day!  Some of the medals out there are pretty sweet!  but that's not why I'm here today!

I have been a busy bee with my working out over the last week!  After busting out W1D1 of my C25K training, I danced and then did W1D2, and then I did a decent chunk of time on the elliptical and on the same day ran .75 miles straight without stopping!  Yesterday I did a short 1.4 mile walk just to get it in for Mileage May but my shins are barking worse than sore feet.  So I took it easy.  And then... today happened.

I was feeling the itch of "I'm sitting here playing WoW all morning, I really should go do a workout."  But I managed to talk myself out of it for 2 more achievements...  Then it came back.  So I decided since I was pretty lax yesterday, I'd bust out W1D3 of my training.  Then I had the even BETTER idea to just extend it a bit further to knock out one of my virtual 5ks!  2 for 1!

So I jump on the treadmill to avoid the 99 degree weather.  My shins are instantly screaming.  I feel like it's my stride and intensity of my brisk walk that's making it worse... I could be making that all up as well!  But it hurts worse when I walk, not jog.  It took 2 of my 3.1 miles for the pain to dissipate...  #annoyed!  I'm looking up some ways to help relieve the tightness in that muscle because it's just driving me nuts, but massage seems to be the best answer.  We'll see how helpful it really is.

On to the results!  *drumroll please!*

I have a new PR!  I have blown my old one out of the water and I am more than excited!!!

I actually jogged the last 3 mins of my C25K session and then walked from 2.3 to 2.85 miles and then actually ran the last .25 miles!  I am super proud of me for finishing (as I'm still not feeling terribly well.  Think the running is actually a part of why my stomach has been upset) and I'm even more proud that I pushed myself to get up and get active on my lazy day :)

Here's my progress since I started my walking/jogging last year!  I've come a long way and I'm excited to add to this list to make it longer and longer!

Hope everyone had a lovely weekend and if you raced, I know you did awesome because that's just a given when you get out and get active!!!

Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Spring is he....oh wait no it's summer already!

As we say goodbye to another month in 2014, I'm wondering where the heck spring went!  For those of you NOT in Phoenix, I am mildly jealous, except for the snowstorm in Flagstaff last weekend. It's been hot, humid, and it's only getting worse!  *grumble*  Normally this would not be a bad thing, but that was when I was a chunky couch potato or computer chair potato if you will.  Now that I'm up and active, man this weather is not great for long periods of time. : /

April brought me a slue of emotions.  My abdominal stuff has stayed the same since my last check in, still no answers, but hopefully I'll have some more direction or ideas at my next doc appt.  I went through the "oh gosh a whole year at my job, man I hate my job, naaaaaaah it's still pretty awesome" routine.  And I was all over the place when it came to workouts and being active!

My April goals were:

I must be honest.  I struggled with each and every one on this list.  I did start taking care of me.  And if this has effected my friendship with anyone, I do apologize but I'm overwhelmed and trying to balance it as best as I can.  I did get some rest but probably not as much as I should have!  I was out of the 180's for a week and a half!  I'm back at 180 as of this morning, but that's ok!  I know why and I know that I will be able to knock it back down in no time!  As far as loving me, I love what I'm trying to accomplish, but with all my medical issues, I just can't seem to love myself.  I honestly can't blame me for what's going on since there's no indication of anything wrong!  I guess it's a process, one which I'm working on slowly but surely.

This month was busy in regards to being up and active on the weekends.  I unfortunately missed out on the March of Dimes because I wasn't feeling up to it, but I did get to participate in the #BostonStrong 2.62 mile walk and a 1 mile walk for Striking out child abuse. :)

And now to move on to May :)  I started the Couch25k training over again as of yesterday!  Boy can I tell you how excited I am?!  I blew through it like it was nothing and I am feeling really good about this time around.  I took a 6 month break due to some major hip issues I developed and in that time I picked up some serious walking habits!  It's making all the difference!

Here are my goals for the month and I think I'm aiming pretty high considering all I'm still going through, BUT I am determined to get through it all with flying colors!
  • I will be joining in on the new monthly calendar from the Shrinking Jeans.
  • I will stick to my C25K training at least 3 times a week
  • I will dance at least once a week
  • I will try to establish a new PR at my Foam Glow 5k
  • I will get back to restricting my eating out! *MAX 3 times a week* 
  • I will be recording my miles for the month for an AWESOME facebook event (this is to shoot for as many miles as you can/want) AND this AWESOME Facebook Event too (challenging you to walk at least a mile every day)!!  and for a fun Lord of the Rings project that my buddy Becka is doing! (pictures to come of how I'm doing that one!!)
Here's the calendar if you didn't click on the link!  This month is all about the Muffin Top!

I hope everyone had a great month and wish everyone the best for the month of May!  Let's kick it into high gear!  It's almost bathing suit time!  oh wait who am i kidding it already is here in phoenix...

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Options and Decisions.

So, guess my suggestion to myself to post more didn't register in my head, but that's ok!  I've got a lot going on in this brain of mine.  Thought I'd give a short but sweet update on my abdomen issues.

So it's been 2 1/2 weeks since my colonoscopy and things are still not great.  I won't see the doctor until the end of the month so there's really nothing exciting or new there.  Just horrible frustration at all the negatives and "came back normal" messages.  While I am counting my blessings and know I don't have certain horrible diseases or issues, it doesn't get me any closer to where I need to be.

I took it upon myself to start 2 courses of action.  The first is the gluten-free trial.  My tests all came back negative for Celiac's but I'm convinced that this could potentially lead to an answer of sorts.  I've been on it for a week and a half and feel like it's very hot and cold.  I feel good some days and just awful other days.  I am finding this trial to be extremely difficult.  I have very low motivation to go in the kitchen and cook with all this going on and throw in a huge list of "can't have"... well that leads to issues.  I had a breakdown over the weekend when I tried to make a pizza dough (pre-packaged and gluten free).  It turned out awful and pizza dough should not have that consistency.  I am very frustrated and feel that if I want/need to eat out, all I can have is Mexican food!  That being said, I LOVE Mexican food (just look at half my recipe blog!) but I am having a hard time giving up flour tortillas.  I am also feeling a touch guilty! I'm not putting on weight from eating too much because I'm making semi-good eating out choices... but I am feeling bad in general about all the eating out just so I can get something in my tummy.  I am struggling with this and I'm doing the best I can with the little bit of hope I have left. :(  I will continue this gluten-free trial until I see the GI doctor for my follow up just so I know whether or not time had any effect on my pain.

My second action is to start picking other specialists to see.  There are a number of options I will be following but the first one is a dietician/allergen doctor!  Even though I'm negative for Celiac's that doesn't mean it's not something I'm eating and I'm just not paying attention enough to see patterns.  The doctor I've chosen specializes in digestive issues (i.e. IBS, crohns, celiac, etc).  I see her for my first "getting to know you, your problems, and your hopes" appt next week and I am praying that she can help me find something! Not one of the doctors I've seen so far have even suggested this might be some sort of food allergy.  They have all been hasty, test heavy, not so much talking, etc.  I'm glad to have the tests done, but no alternative theories have been suggested, no plans, nothing to help me through the pain while everyone takes their time figuring it all out.  So, here's hoping this allergen doctor will be one more step in the right direction!

At this point baby steps are all I have.  I'm flying blind with pain and no answers.  It's risking my job because of all the absences.  It's causing me stress, and I've given up most of my hope.  I have done everything just to make sure I stay positive even if there's no hope left inside me.  That's a big change since my last undiagnosed knee issue.  I understand doctors have their limits and things won't always be found, but 9 weeks of this and I'm getting tired of the fight.  So happy face or not, I'm doing what I can for myself since I don't feel the doctors are doing enough for me.

With all this going on, my working out has taken a nose-dive, but now that I have my new shoes in finally...

I can start trying to put some walking miles on those bad boys.  There's not much else I am able to do most days.  I really need to do core workouts but it irritates my abdomen too much so walking it is!  I need to get back to those walks where I can clear my head and know I'm doing everything I can for myself. :)  Problems or not I can't sit still for too long.  Drives me nuts!

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

With Bated Breath...

After 7 weeks of doctors, ER visits, tests, blood samples, and now a colonoscopy.... I'm still sitting on my bum waiting.  Waiting for the clear cut, no strings attached answer.  What's wrong with me?  I've just about gone bonkers with undiagnosed medical issues and this is not one that can just continue without a title, a name, a label, something.

Bill after bill, sleepless night after restless morning, pain day in and day out, I'm slowly doing what I do best.  I lose hope in the doctors that are caring for me.  Why are all the tests negative or clear?  I mean yeah! That's great but that doesn't explain the excruciating pain I'm currently experiencing.  I'm not able to work full shifts, I had to completely stop working out (including my small walks at work).  I am just going nuts in my own head.  All that I have is TV, reading or video games.  (while that's not at all bad in my vocabulary.... it's not what I should be doing or even need to be doing)

This week has proved to be the absolute worst of it so far.  My pain spread and tripled after my colonoscopy.  The doctor's advice?  Go to the ER if it doesn't go away.  Well what are they going to do for me?  Run tests.  Tests that have already been run in the last 7 weeks.  #frustrated

Through all of this, I have had a lot of friends inquiring, checking in on me, etc.  I am extremely grateful for all the love!  It may even end up being a lifesaver!  A friend suggested out of nowhere that I may have Celiac Disease.  *well what the heck is that? pause while I Google it...*  Hmmm fascinating!  It's a gluten intolerance that is an autoimmune disease attacking the small intestine.  Stomach/abdominal issues run in my family and to my knowledge no one has been tested for this before.  My mother sure hasn't and it's a genetic disease.

So while I wait, horribly impatiently for my results... I've decided to do a bit of studying on my own.  Boy am I overwhelmed.  With a lot of different feelings.  I am ecstatic that this disease sounds just like what I'm experiencing and that means it might actually have a label!  I am horrified because I want to be a chef, I cook constantly, and to give up some of the stuff that I incorporate day to day is daunting.  I am sad because my pantry will be empty once I ditch the gluten.  I am worried because of the money it will cost to stock the house back up with G-free foods.  I am stressed because I don't want to impose this new diet on my bf but I don't want to be around foods I can't have all the time.  I am hopeful that this may be an amazing solution to a lifelong abdominal issue.

I will be researching in more detail for the rest of the week and will give the G-free diet a go for a few weeks as a test run while I wait for those results to come in.  I've read that there are great benefits to adopting this diet even if you don't have Celiac, but I'll cross that bridge once I have definitive answers.

To any of you out there reading this, do you have words of advice, favorite G-free websites, great G-free recipes (sugar free if you share dessert :(  I can't have that either), or thoughts in general?  I am eyeball deep in materials but I'm getting horribly overwhelmed by the big picture instead of taking it meal by meal or even ingredient by ingredient.  I did however discover that 80% of my seasonings and herbs are G-free.  That was a huge relief!

So here's to information and a new journey that may take me all over the place but it may just save my life.

Wed Weigh in #3

I know, I know, I didn't get around to #2 but listen!  I was having medical malfunctions of the body and quite frankly I just didn't have the heart to write something uplifting in the moods I've had lately.  But there are a lot of things going down with me and it's time to catch up.

Week 2 of our #SpringIntoAction challenge was to workout for 40 mins 4 days of the week.  I am proud to say that I blew that right out of the water!  *just in time I might add*  as my medical issues started getting worse the day after "Day 4 of 40."  Here's my photos of that week's adventure!

I had a blast doing it and I'm proud to say that it wasn't difficult at all for me to achieve!  Motivation WHAT?!  I'm super proud of myself.  I'm also proud of my teammate who kicked the challenge's butt too!

Week #3's challenge was to step out of your comfort zone.  This one was a no brainer for me.  I was pumped and ready for a Zumba class like a lot of you ladies out there!  I saw a lot of posts about it!  I instead ended up "stepping out" of my comfort in a way I was not happy about.  I give credit to my #chunkymonkey partner for suggesting that this falls directly in the challenge, but I feel like it was an easy way out.  I had to rest.  I had to hang up the headphones and the Polar for several days due to my medical stuff.  I had to fast for a procedure and that meant for sure no working out.  So while I was nice and comfy on my couch, feeling lazy and enjoying not working out, I was extremely unhappy with the situation because I want to work out.  I want to put forth the effort.  Rest.  There's that stupid but necessary word again.  I had to rest in order for my abdominal issues to get looked at properly.  So I'll chalk it up to a win for the challenge but I am still whining and complaining!

As for this new week!  Week #4 is to not weigh myself for a week.  This unfortunately is not an issue whatsoever for me.  I am instead choosing to take a picture of myself each day and I will add something nice about myself to help me with my self-image.  I am not quite sure where my feelings are coming from about not being successful or doing all the right stuff to lose the weight in all the right places.  I have come so far and I just discredit myself.  Well now's the time to break that habit while I'm still ahead!

I picked the #sisterhoodshots back up this month.  I figure with all that free time I suddenly have from not working out, I might as well get back in it!  I really enjoy them and love others that participate too!  Above is my Day 1: No foolin' selfie I took to let everyone know my insecurity about my image.

Have you started up April's photos?!  If not, why not give it a try!

Now on to it being Wed Weigh in!  As of first thing this morning, I am down 22.2 lbs since Jan 1st.  I am proud of the changes I have made, the steps I have taken to get here.  I am struggling but the longer I'm in the Shrinking Jeans group, the more I feel loved and supported no matter what my days or weeks look like.  I am blessed to have the friends and family I do. :)

I wish everyone luck this week in their endeavors, their goals, their struggles, and all the bumps ahead.  We can all do this!  Let's kick this week's butt!

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Spring into Action Week 1 Check in

Boy what a busy month it has been so far!  Training at work has really thrown a wrench in my workout time, cooking time, sleep time.... time in general.  You get the picture :)  Looking forward to Monday when I'll finally be back to my actual schedule and no more rush hour traffic!  Makes all the difference :)

So here goes!  With March comes the newest challenge by the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans.  This time around it's a little more of what I've seen before.  We were to make teams and we're competing using our weight loss as a whole against other groups.  I grouped up with my buddy from last year's kickoff Shrinking Jeans challenge.  My Chunky Monkey partner Melissa! :)

We kicked it off with the Shamrock Shuffle virtual 5k!  We got together down in Tempe with her husband and her dog and we walked around the lake a bunch of times.  The weather was gorgeous, the sun with the breeze lifting off the water, it was very enjoyable!  I had a really nice time catching up a bit.

Our first week's mini challenge was yoinked from the Shrinking Jeans suggestions.  We decided to take pictures of our food each day to observe how we're eating and where we can make improvements.  I really had fun doing it.  My weekend for sure shows my mood and where things got a bit bumpy when I got bad news.  But as I have learned many many times, one or two meals don't discredit all the hard work I've put in!  I hummed and hawed a bit before making the decision to share my bad days with the Shrinking Ladies group.  I felt that it was more about me being honest rather than anyone else really caring what I'm eating day to day so I went ahead and shared.  And here are the 6 days I kept track of:

 This current week's goal is to work out for 40 mins for at least 4 days.  I have already put in day 1!

Other good news would be I'm down just shy of another 1/2 pound. :)  They're coming off a lot slower now but I'm more than alright with that since I've lost what was really important to me.  From here on out, I'm still working hard, eating right, and paying attention, but I'm not stressing about whether I will yo-yo since I know that the last 2.5 months have made changes in my body for the better.  The longer the habits stay, the more I'll benefit from them no matter what the scale says every week.

I hope everyone out there is doing well.  I went from having a meltdown (over a change of doctors, postponing/cancelling a procedure) to being honky dorey again for the most part.  I'm very grumbly that I won't actually meet the doctor performing my procedure before it happens, but it was that or wait for an unknown amount of time (months) for my doctor to possibly come back.  I wish her well in whatever she's dealing with and now I'm back to hoping for the best (crossing my fingers for answers) with my surgery to figure out my abdominal issues that have been plaguing me for over a month.

It's the tough times that make it all worth it.  I know the strength acquired in hardships.  I've been through many of my own as have all of you.  They are essential to life itself.  How else would we learn?  Just remember that bad times will end and there's no reason to fret or stress too much.  It's bad for your health! :)